Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Me & my hair

So yesterday, I decided to take the plunge and shave my head. After the first chemo session, my hair had been shedding a lot! A common side effect to chemo. I have been finding clumps of my precious curls around the flat and I decided enough was enough. I even found Isaac spitting my hair out of his little mouth….

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So hubby took me to his barber, and held my hand while the nice gentleman scrapped every last strand off my head while I kept my eyes shut and said a little prayer. I told myself it's just hair.

It was a surreal experience to say the least.

I have always had a funny relationship with my hair. In recent years, with the natural hair movement that you see in blogs and on YouTube, many women of colour have been embracing their natural curls which is very different world to how it was for me growing up in the UK during the 90's & early 00's.

There were times where I was always made to feel like I had to do something to cover my curls as if to say, my hair isn't normal, sort it out!

Some of my earliest memories are comprised of negative comments regarding my hair. The headmistress of my primary school once told me that she didn't like my braids that my mother had lovingly placed in my head. Can you believe it? A woman (actually a nun, a woman of God…) towered over 8 year old me and asked me who do I think I was to have my hair like that….

But that's society/people for you. The tight black curls that come out of my head wasn't deemed normal. Society made me feel that it was more normal to have straight European hair extensions, to relax my hair to an inch of it's life to the point it became brittle and dry…all so I can be accepted.

Don't get me wrong, I am not anti-hair extensions, I can rock it with the best of them. One of the plus sides is that I can decide whether I want to have a bob, fringe, blue or green hair anytime I want.

But it has taken me to lose my hair, to love it…

We don't know the sex of the baby yet, but if I have a girl, I am going to make sure she's going to rock every last curl on her head and own it and make sure she's comfortable in the skin she's in!


An old "before" picture:
The only photo I have of my natural hair! I regret not rocking this look more 

And here's me now: 
It's a good thing I have a nice shaped head! 

I will probably do another post on being baldilocks, but at the moment I am still trying to get to grips with it. 

One step at a time. 

Thanks for stopping by

C xx

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  1. You are beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing your story.

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  2. You are beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing your story.

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  3. Just beautiful. You're an inspiration to me Sugababe xxxx

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